Of No Importance

I am still heartbroken heart broken hear t.b.r. oke roken
“Critical Condition/Emergency” It was crossed out.
I don’t want to read these anymore meditation exercises routines THEY DON’T HELP! “Hallucinations, Low Serotonin, Somatic Depression, Recurrent Episodes, Insomnia…” I don’t want GABA nor calcium injections, I’m fine.
“Why did you quit DC?”
Stop it.
I dream every single night, I remember being in hell when I was five I remember dreams before I began to talk how could I articulation is it possible Chiampi said to me, just because God knows the future does not mean he’s made the choice for you. It’s like if he’s watching the replay of a football game, he knows what’s going to happen, but He had no role in the freedom of choice the person made. Otherwise, there would be no justice in punishment! in hell! Jeff, looking for me, found me drunk, confused, sitting alone.
“I am holding Grandma’s hand”
She and I talked about Ueno where she would walk by her large, grand flowers blooming in season. It’s next to the mini zoo. The scuba diving instructor walked me there and as he thought we might have been on a sweet date, I would smile to myself as I knew I was with Grandma instead. They really were the size of six-year-olds. I would return to let her know, and call out Kumiko-san! She said it made her feel like she was young in Japan again, and I promised I would return with her, to Ueno.
“Tell me about last night”
I was in my bed with my Grandmother’s rotting corpse next to me.
“Why was she there?”
She was waiting for me to say bye.
“What did she say?”
The most beautiful things my ears could have heard from the goodness of God Himself.